I’m trying to figure out why I feel like a failure this week! I have worked out hard three days this week and planning on working out in the morning. I haven’t really lost my focus on my eating habits this week, I did have a couple of bad days this week but nothing to bad. (the extra exercise made up for it!) I’m debating if it was the stress of starting a new job and trying to go to school or was it family junk! I don’t know! The family stuff wasn’t to bad this week, just a few minor problems but nothing that out of the norm! I was able to share my testimony on Wednesday at Campus Crusade for Christ, it was emotional but felt great to me able to stand up and proclaim what God has done in my life! The only thing I know is that I woke up this morning and just felt bad, and self-critical! I’ve been praying all day for peace but it just was not came yet, which is ok! I’m feeling God has something for me to realize but I just can’t but my finger on it yet! I just don’t know! I’m feeling like I’m being lead into some time of prayer. I may just have to break down and spend the rest of today in prayer!
But I cry to you for help, Lord; in the morning my prayer comes before you. (Psalm 88:13 NIV)
Father, please guide me as I spend time in prayer and let it be pleasing to you! I ask that you help me figure out what in my heart is making me feel like a failure, if it is your will to make be stronger I ask that you allow me to rest in your marvelous love and grace! I love you! In your sons loving grace Amen!